As an Addictions Coach and a pioneer of changing the face of addiction in coming against the 12 Steppers, I’m not your favorite person coming down the street. Users question why I say hello, families draw back thinking I’m going to give them the Rescue talk, and for the few that addiction doesn’t affect, they’re afraid I’ll suspect that they’re ‘addicts’. I guess I can’t win a popularity award around anyone these days…except for those who I coach through their darkness and who come out the other side in victory. It is for those lives that I’m here.
If you see me in your neighborhood, don’t bolt; just talk to me. I’m there because you need to be rescued. I’m there to stop you from dying. I’m there because God saved my life from a terrible addiction in order to save yours. It’s not easy…just worth it. You’re worth it.
The healing obtained through God is forever…without steps…without wagons…without being labeled an addict ever again. God brings freedom and hope.
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As we lead people to the Cross to end their addiction forever, I often am forced to reflect on my own journey back from what was my own darkness in addiction. I never want to forget…not even for a heartbeat. The ‘tease’ of the early highs to keeping up with using more and more so as to not get sick in the (literal) hell of withdrawal. It was the great seduction of the drugs. After only a few times, the drugs own you…and your soul. You cannot get free except for when God sends that one person who sees you for who you are and reaches out for the Rescue! In my case, it was my older daughter, bless her soul. She had been through it two years before and could see the signs that I was sinking fast. The drugs had such control over me that I didn’t even understand what was happening to my mind; that shouldn’t have been because I had been a nurse for over 25 years and I should have known what I didn’t know. Doctor and nurses just don’t learn about addiction in our training. It’s presented in a couple of moments and then it’s never mentioned again. Strange, huh? Don’t think, if you’re using, that you will escape what I went through. Just to brief you quickly right now, I lapsed into a coma, jumped out of a window to what was supposed to be my death, and then fought for my life in the cardiac care unit when my heart gave up and I lay there dehydrated and lifeless.
It’s hard at first. I remember not knowing how to ‘feel’. I didn’t know how to deal with anger because drugging covered all of that up for me. Tears were foreign to me. I couldn’t understand the compassion I suddenly had. What about anxiety? No more drugs to eliminate it. I know now that everyone goes through this. Drugs and alcohol mask everything that is human within us. Remember, it owns your soul. Emotions and feelings need to be processed properly and you need guidance and skills to know how to do that. These are things that are normal for all those ending their addiction. It’s just a matter of learning how to be ‘normal’ again. It doesn’t take long…it just takes courage, a little work and patience. Anything worth anything is worth fighting for. With God, it’s possible.
Why was I one of the tiny 1%-3% who survive? Simple answer. The Lord had mercy on me. In Romans 9 verse 15, God says,…“I will have mercy on whomever I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whomever I will have compassion.” Not understanding the mind of our God, I consider myself extremely blessed for His mercy and compassion because, without it, well…you know! With that said, if you are someone in the darkness of an addiction, quit believing the ‘worldly morons’ who tell you you’re a diseased addict and will never be anything else. They will send you to some hopeless rehab that gives you the 12 steps to hell to help you. Don’t do it! Trust God. He is bigger than any addiction and since He created you, He can fix you. Jesus doesn’t do half a job…He doesn’t make you climb any steps or fall off wagons…He has no tricks up His sleeve as Satan has. Jesus will make you whole and you will be better than you ever were. Life will have meaning. You will never crave drugs or alcohol again. Trust Him. Love Him. Follow His Footsteps. He will “never leave you or forsake you“. He will make you whole. Our God is a God of many second chances and unconditional love that we are not able to fully understand.
Don’t give up! Family…Rescue your loved one before it’s too late.
My daughter and I often revisit each of our former and very done addictions to prescription drugs. My daughter’s was for five years and it was due to a very unethical doctor who was selling Actiq from her office. My Rx addiction had to do with my own dark past from age 11, along with another unethical doctor who took full advantage of what he learned about me. That’s all for another time. Neither my child nor myself ever look back with desire for drugs…just with reflection on how blessed we both are to be alive when we really should have died. Praise God we’re here and living productive and fruitful lives.
As we were speaking last night, my wise ‘kid’ said only 3 little words that were so very profound and meaningful. She said,
“Remember to Forget”.
So, I have decided to forget the pain of what happened to me but about those ‘reflections’ – they are amazingly beautiful and fuel me each day to continue the work that God began in me 5 years ago when He saved my life from a massive accidental overdose from a lethal cocktail given to me by my trusted(?) doctor. So, I would want to tweak those three words to add, “Don’t Forget to Remember”…meaning that I always want the lessons that I painfully learned from my former addiction to stay in a prominent place in my consciousness. I will never ever stop helping those in the darkness of addiction. I will never stop telling people stuck in the bondage of addiction that their lives can be free and they can move forward into the purpose for which God created them. Yes, we all have a Divine Purpose and addiction has a permanent end. Yes, even YOU who are reading this…YOU, my friend have a special purpose that no one else has…YOUR life matters! If you need help, click here. Money doesn’t matter and isn’t a stumbling block to getting help that you need. Life is amazing once you “wake up” from your addiction and begin to flower and feel what being is all about.
“I am the Head and not the Tail”…I am An Addict No More!